Disdain

from Dead Reflections by Homesick

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You put me in a cage and locked the door
You put me away, now you're not even in my life
I'll let the smoke fill up my lungs
Because my body is a wasteland
And I'm giving up

Now your mind shuts out all of our six years
While your words of love now fall on his ears
Now I'm learning to live with all the damage you dealt
Maybe I wouldn't have thought about killing myself
If I had left

I got by placing blame and pointing fingers
You tore me down when you said you were behind me
Take me away from this place I've been mistaken

It was all those long drives and office-filled nights that I thought were my therapy
But really they were just distracting me from looking into the mirror
And seeing emptiness echo inside of my eyes

My disdain for you should have been disdain for myself
Even though I was the one who put your picture face down on the shelf
I would never analyze the lies that I told to you and that I told to myself
And it was always out of fear of realizing
That I'm tired of being a ghost and haunting your name
Because the truth is I was the sinner and you were the saint
But I would never tell myself I was the one to blame
Maybe I'm to blame for my lack of love
Maybe I'm at fault for my own downfall

You took the fire from my heart
You stole the dreams from my head
You gave me these dead eyes
But I'll claim these scarred legs
Your edges are scattered in my dreams
You're off my heart, get out of my head

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from Dead Reflections, released September 21, 2018

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Homesick Huntington, West Virginia

Ben Miller - Vocals/Guitar

Veronica Stanley - Guitar

Charles Chambers - Bass

Blake Viars-Wilks - Drums

discography

Dead Reflections

Sep 2018
Altar Call

Mar 2017
Disdain

Jul 2016

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